Creating in Fear

The truth is…

I haven’t been creating my best life. I’ve been in survival when I should be in abundance. I shrink in spaces. I silence myself. I allow myself to stop pursuing something that I know I should be doing. I haven’t had the money that I have wanted. I haven’t filmed a passion project in almost a year. I haven’t filmed Burning Sage. I wish that my personal and professional life had some semblance of routine.

I had a chat with my friend about our recent church sermon: Faith for Miracles. Pastor Mike Todd did his thing per usual, and it occurred to me that in some areas, I still lack faith. Who am I to decide that my idea won’t work? It’s His and he wouldn’t have given it to me if it were just to fail. Fear is what keeps you from having full faith. Fear keeps you from pursuing your dreams. Fear keeps you from living in your truth and being your best self. Fear keeps you from living abundantly.

So recently, I’ve taken on the mindset of trying “it” anyway. Only losers laugh at people when they are trying to accomplish something.

(Yes, I name call when people are bullies and I’m not sorry about it. Just cause you’re miserable and unfulfilled does not mean that you have to make everyone else miserable.)

I am embarking on an adventure that I have always hated, dreaded, and avoided: CROWDFUNDING FOR MY PILOT. Yes, Burning Sage is happening, because I’m willing it to. I’ve been way more vocal about the process on social media as well as in-person. It’s one of the most awkward feats of my life. But what’s on the other side of that is what is keeping me grounded and determined. I’d much rather have a finished project. I’d rather have accomplished a fear/big goal.

Creating your best life (Createher Best Life) isn’t just about fun art or building a career/business. It’s literally about becoming the person that you dreamed of/meant to be. I’m looking forward to the person I will be when I’m done. The person who is kind even when others aren’t, who does the scary thing, who moves the mountain, who drives the train. As somebody I admire said, be the moving train. Everybody wants to get on a moving train, so have the momentum of whatever your movement is going already so people are eager to help out. Be the anchor, be the shooting star. Be you. You’re only holding yourself back from the best version of you. Don’t you want to meet them? I do.

So create in fear. Create without a blueprint, a mentor, or money.

Sending you encouragement for your development and success! Create your best life. For real this time 💜